Those are part of the lyrics from the song “Fear” on Jazmine Sullivan’s first album. I can’t even put into words how exactly this matches how I feel right now. So I’m working on my dream, and every day, bringing it to fruition comes a little closer. People keep saying that the fact that it’s so close should encourage me. In reality, the fact that it’s so close scares the shit out of me. Jazmine took a page out of my life when she sang this song.
Ok, so the dream is to start a program to encourage, challenge, educate, basically improve young girls. I eventually want to turn the program into a center that does the same thing, but the center would be available all the time, as opposed to being a weekly program. I’ve got a name, a tax ID number, a planned schedule, a mission statement, and a whole bunch more stuff. The thing is, once I put out these flyers and pamphlets, that’s it. There’s no turning back. People will be looking for C.H.A.N.G.E.
What happens when C.H.A.N.G.E. takes off and I have to quit my day job? The comfort of working for someone else is the benefit of knowing that they have to do all the worrying about keeping the doors open, and if the doors close, they still have to pay me, at least for a while. If I do this, that’s all my responsibility. It’s like I’m teetering on a cliff and I can’t see if there’s a bunch of pillows or a bunch of jagged rocks in the ravine below.
Should I jump? Better yet…CAN I jump???
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